What do I want from this semester?
Coming back from a long break makes a semester feel really daunting. It's easy to get overwhelmed, and it can be hard to keep your focus on your own growth, and on the fact that you don't have every single assignment due tomorrow. There's a lot of information to process, and it kind of overwhelms me at the beginning of every semester. So I make a list; 'What do I want to accomplish this semester?', 'What habits do I want to start or maintain?', 'What grade do I want in my classes?', 'What do I need for medical stuff?'
The list starts to get super long. I start to get stressed, because there's so much to do, and so little time, and I should really start everything now...
Breathe in. Breathe out. I have until May to work on these things. It's only day one, and there are so many more days to do everything I want to. It's okay if not everything is done. So I take the list, and I look at it again, closely. What needs to get done today? Two things. I do the two things. I take the list, and I give stuff dates, so that when I look at the list, it isn't just a cluttered mess of EVERYTHING that needs to get done, but rather a timeline for my own benefit. Do these other things need to get done, or are they just stuff I should probably do when it feels right? What things on this list will make me feel happy, or re-energized, or fulfilled? I make sure to do those things. After all, I can't just do schoolwork and nothing else, I know that aggravates my anxiety, and worsens my depression.
My biggest intention is to become a better version of myself. I want to be better than I am. That means a lot of things, and can be achieved in a number of ways.
I want to be a better student, so I register for less classes, so that I can devote more energy to the fewer subjects.
I want to be a better artist, so I buy my ASUNM craft studio membership, and transport my art supplies from my parent's house.
I want to be a better friend, so I find time to meet my friends for dinner, and talk with them.
I want to be a better boyfriend, so I spend time with my boyfriend, just making sure he knows just how loved he is.
I want to feel better about my body, so I update my doctor, and start looking into medical transitioning, and top surgery.
I want to be better. So I make the list, of everything I think will make me a better person; and at first it's overwhelming, cause there's so much change to do, so much time to invest. But I take the list, and I do it. And maybe it takes more than one semester to do all the things I want, but I try to make everything an improvement.
Coming back from a long break makes a semester feel really daunting. It's easy to get overwhelmed, and it can be hard to keep your focus on your own growth, and on the fact that you don't have every single assignment due tomorrow. There's a lot of information to process, and it kind of overwhelms me at the beginning of every semester. So I make a list; 'What do I want to accomplish this semester?', 'What habits do I want to start or maintain?', 'What grade do I want in my classes?', 'What do I need for medical stuff?'
The list starts to get super long. I start to get stressed, because there's so much to do, and so little time, and I should really start everything now...
Breathe in. Breathe out. I have until May to work on these things. It's only day one, and there are so many more days to do everything I want to. It's okay if not everything is done. So I take the list, and I look at it again, closely. What needs to get done today? Two things. I do the two things. I take the list, and I give stuff dates, so that when I look at the list, it isn't just a cluttered mess of EVERYTHING that needs to get done, but rather a timeline for my own benefit. Do these other things need to get done, or are they just stuff I should probably do when it feels right? What things on this list will make me feel happy, or re-energized, or fulfilled? I make sure to do those things. After all, I can't just do schoolwork and nothing else, I know that aggravates my anxiety, and worsens my depression.
My biggest intention is to become a better version of myself. I want to be better than I am. That means a lot of things, and can be achieved in a number of ways.
I want to be a better student, so I register for less classes, so that I can devote more energy to the fewer subjects.
I want to be a better artist, so I buy my ASUNM craft studio membership, and transport my art supplies from my parent's house.
I want to be a better friend, so I find time to meet my friends for dinner, and talk with them.
I want to be a better boyfriend, so I spend time with my boyfriend, just making sure he knows just how loved he is.
I want to feel better about my body, so I update my doctor, and start looking into medical transitioning, and top surgery.
I want to be better. So I make the list, of everything I think will make me a better person; and at first it's overwhelming, cause there's so much change to do, so much time to invest. But I take the list, and I do it. And maybe it takes more than one semester to do all the things I want, but I try to make everything an improvement.
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